THE MEDICINE OF PARADOX
'To reject or deny paradox in our lives is tragic but also often contains a trace of the absurd. I tried, as gently as I dared, to suggest this to the young person who had tried suicide. Because, unless we can see the difference between paradox and failure, we condemn ourselves to repeat patterns of self-rejection and despair. To see our own absurdity in dealing wrongly with the problems of life can bring us to wisdom.
'We need to appeal to the wisdom that lives deeper than the pain in our soul. As Simone Weil said, beneath our deepest lamentations there is the pearl of the silence of God. Wisdom summons us to endure and bestows strength from beyond the horizon of our expectations. But this is a struggle and we are unlikely to succeed at it if we are entirely alone.
'A spiritual practice like meditation takes us deeper than the observing ego scanning our body or mental states. In deep meditation a power of integration is unleashed that leads to permanent beneficial change in character and behaviour patterns. Nothing may happen in the meditation period but our life is changed.
'Because of the speed and high desire-levels at which we live today we are full of loose ends. Like a badly finished construction job where wires are left hanging out of the wall or gaps appear between the wall and the ceiling, our minds and feeling are scattered with unresolved experiences.
As with the young person I mentioned above who has to relive a childhood trauma whenever emotional loss is experienced, we often don’t know what our loose ends are until a new trauma strikes. Healing is the tying up and soothing of these wounds. It is a work of grace on our natural selves but it is not miraculous....In fact it is ‘your faith that has healed you...'